After all, the Packers have played only one game to date and will have a chance to bounce back on "Monday Night Football" against the Lions. Green Bay certainly could turn things around. Packers v Lions. American Football. Rams 16m ago. Is Tua Tagovailoa playing on Thursday night? It was an easy way for me to be alone, and it helped me avoid those awkward interactions with people.
Then one day, I went out to my truck to go for a drive, and I had to go back inside because I forgot my keys. That started happening a lot. One night, we went out to dinner, and after I paid the bill and walked out of the restaurant, Courtney came up behind me with my wallet in her hand, waving it at me. I guess I had left it on the table.
Over time, I grew more isolated and more distant from Courtney and the kids — from everybody, really — while I tried to sort myself out and deal with whatever the hell was going on with me. I figured I was just in a funk because I missed the game, and everything that came along with it. I mean, I loved the game of football, and now it was gone. I missed the adrenaline rush you get from playing the game and all that, but more than anything, I think I just felt abandoned.
I played in the NFL for six years, and every day I was being evaluated. Coaches, trainers, teammates, fans — I was constantly being judged for my performance on Sundays and during the week in the classroom and weight room.
Now, all of a sudden, nobody was paying attention. I started working out three, sometimes four times a day just to validate myself. Because nobody was watching anymore. I basically lost my closest friends, too. Most of the time, I was just trying to find a way to slow my dadgum brain down. I was used to waking up every morning and having a schedule and a ton of stuff to do.
Now, I had nothing. My days were wide open, and I had to try to find a way to fill them. So I was depressed because I felt like my identity as a football player had been taken away from me, I was lonely because I felt abandoned by the game and my friends, and I had anxiety because my entire future felt like an empty calendar that I had to fill up somehow. I was 27 years old and I was retired.
I had no idea what to do with myself. I thought these feelings explained my behavior, my attitude — even my forgetfulness.
I was gonna own my shit and work it out myself. Suck it up and get back out there, you know? It was Courtney who finally gave me my wake-up call. Somebody had told us about a clinic out in California that some former players had been going to.
It was like a neurological clinic where guys who were struggling or having some issues were going to get their heads checked out and do tests and get therapy and all that stuff. I thought, Clinic? I got this under control. Then, one morning, she started talking to me about how distant I had been.
But she had this pain in her face. Then, for the first time, she said something that made me snap out of whatever funk I had been in. That hit me pretty hard. I wondered if it was going to get worse over time, like it probably did for them. The mood swings. The memory loss. Then I thought about the former players who had committed suicide. Was that in my future? Although it is too bad, he could not spend more time on the field catching passes from Rodgers. Can […]. Continue Reading.
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